Uncertainty

Before the Sun rises to brighten the dark sky, before the birds chipping away in the dawn and when many people are still having rapid eye movement, i woke up and made my way to the bus station in the chilly morning...

I was looking up high at the sky the whole time during the journey... the light from the fiery planet just break the dawn in the slowest motion especially when u are looking at it and seeing the changes in the count of miliseconds. Sky slowly turned blue as we were leaving the Heathrow airport to enter London Central... Accompanying those ever so amazingly shaped cloud on the sky were now not only the early birds....but also the queue of arriving aircrafts which are descending down from the sky with only about 2 minutes distance away from each other. This sight never fail to fascinate me... London... one of the most advanced metropolitan and also heart of the world's stock market where it is being manipulate by people and affecting the life of every human being in the world each second... regardless whether u are young or old... you are affected without u realising.... it is just the quantity differences...

It always make me ponder, is it because of the economy and the opportunities in and around London which lure manys to come into this land. The currency English pound has been one of the most expensive currency in the world attracts many from all around the world to gather here, some are here with highly professional skills and some are here hoping to earn their first bucket of gold... of course some worked hard for it and some was lured by the illegal activities to achieve the objective... is it all worthwhile to come here.... Leaving your love ones and settle down in this 'promising' land...

I had a short conversation with a Foundation Year 1 doctor from Sri Lanka... he told me about his life when he first came here to this land hoping to get a job as medical doctor. He is highly qualified and a doctor with 8 years of invaluable experience before. He was not the lucky one who managed to get a job the first time he arrived here. Instead, he was not offered any doctor job and have to resort to look for other job just to support his family who came here together with him... He ended up working at a petrol station for 1 year and a mini cab driver for another 1 year before finally getting the F1 post. Life was not easy for him to support family of 3 that time. But he persist and finally got his chance of continue his original career. He just started his F2 training recently now... and it make me wonder again... With the new immigration regulation... how's his life gonna be after his F2... or would the lucky angel stay with him and bless him to get Specialist training? or he have to go back to his life one year ago... be non medical staff.

While many are trying various ways to enter this land no matter what... there are people who dislike this place and can't wait to go back to their respective home country. I am neither one of those people. I am already here in the UK and continueing my studies here where medical advances here is beyond many imagination... Getting one of the best medical training in the world you can possibly get. But there are always one issue haunting many international students here... yes... nonetheless than the training post availabilities... Many decided to leave this place before even entering their foundation programme while some chose to try their luck and stayed back to test their fate after foundation training... What are the other options available?? Home?? Malaysia?? Singapore?? Australia?? New Zealand?? America?? Decision have to be made soon... time to really consider and weigh the pros and cons of every decision in life... Wish me luck and pray for me so that i can make the decision that HE had planned for me. :-)

Two weeks summer break

WOW.... Finally... after getting back this land for 6 weeks now... finally the first break we ever had.... What should i do during this break... 2 week break when no one is around here.... Some people flew back, some people went travelling with families.... left me alone here in Southampton... Hmmm... What should i do??

My TO DO LIST in this 2 weeks:

• STUDY for OBS and GYnae (Hmmmmm... )
• Finish Harry Potter (the last two books)
• Clean my room (Gonna take few days for this)
• Plan a trip to a beach with nobody..... ( :( Sob)
• Master Mahjong Skill
• Any Suggestions???

It is still a long holiday isn't it... hehe

BTW... Thanks everyone for the most wonderful birthday celebration :) and all the birthday wishes :) THANKS ... I'M OOOOLLLLLLDDDDDDDD..............

Doggy Wow... Dreamsss....

Had one of the weirdest dream last night... i can now be sure... dreams only happen when you are not deeply asleep... i din have a good night sleep last night... so i pressume that's why this funny dream just come across my mind out of blue...

I was in a pet shop... or should i say animal laboratory because that place somehow remind me of the chemistry lab when i was in taylors college... with my sister... we were there waiting to collect a dog back home for some reason... and we had a choice of two.... either a golden retriever or another one ( dunno what u call that... pretty dog with big ears)... always wanted a golden retriever... so i chose that... somehow after we chose the dog we want.. they want us to wait for a while and mentioned we cannot choose wat gender that dog to be... so me and my sister was discussing and comparing the pros and cons of getting either any one the different gender while waiting.. then suddenly he brought a dog to us and happily told us that this is a special dog because it had neither the male nor the female organs... so it's called unidentified gender golden retriever... (WTF!!??!!)

somehow... we walked out the store with the dog and found another small dog in the plastic bag he gave me... it's such a small mini little tiny dog... its as big as my palm... and it look exactly like the other dog he let us choose earlier (the one with big ear) and most importantly... IT's ALIVE and it's moving... ... ... ... ... ... ... i cannot continue from here because somehow i was awake on my own before the end of the dream or did i forgot the ending...

Sometime i really wonder... do dreams actually foretell anything?? or is it just the reflection of what happened earlier on or wat i saw earlier on... If only i'm Hogwart... and i will definitely ask Professor Trelawney to interpret my dream for me.... it will definitely be great to be able to do so... Our brain are so complicated ... besides those four lobes... we have so much going on in the brain... it's take a lot of determination to be in control of your brain... Will human ever be able to understand human brain completely !!!

粽子香

農曆五月初五, 正是一年一度的端午節... 好久好久沒在家鄉度過了... 真的好懷念粽子的味道... 吃了一口媽媽親手包的粽子... 真的是太幸福... :-) 游子們... 有空不妨抽空回家看看... 家才是最溫暖和重要的! 中國人要懂得珍惜所有的親情... 有空聚一聚吧!

端午節快樂!

Happy Gawai !!!

Selamat Hari Gawai to all my Iban friends!!! Prince and princess of the sarawak... :) (Bumiputera) It's ur day!!! Have Fun :)