lost and found

Finally back in this country, far up north in the western world. Was here since the 1st October, had been an eventful one month plus. Things are finally considered as settled down. Broadband is finally up and running, research project is going on slowly, the success of actually move my ass to the gym at least once a week, my room heating system is finally warm enough to keep myself inside to do my work, making weekly church services and bible studies as part of my weekly life and not a chores to do ( thank GOD), what was lost have been found... Well, my dearest frens all, i finally officially declared myself as settled down in this foreign country, well at least almost :-P

Well well, many had happened for the past months. It all started once i reached southampton university highfield interchange. I was on n******l express back from heathrow airport that fine evening. I was hoping to just grab my luggage from the hold of the coach and head back to my new house located not too far away, but, i realised one of my luggage which is supposed to be sitting inside that little compartment is GONE, HILANG, 不見了!!!!!! Where can it be??? Who got my luggage?? Oh my goodness gracious GOD.... who took it... Couldn't believe my eyes, i decided to climb into the compartment and look around thoroughly, No, tak ada, 沒有!!!! oh NO NO NO... of all bags... the bag that contained all my important documents, and i MEAN SUPER IMPORTANT DOCUMENTS (except passport) is gone... forever gone :?!?!??!?!??!?! after getting phone no from bus driver to report loss of my luggage.... i was damm freaking sure i put it into the compartment which is designated for winchester as told by the driver, but it's not there anymore...

Calling N******l express to deal with this matter was not the most pleasant experience. They recorded it down and wat they are doing was just waiting for people to return the luggage to them. After calming myself down and recontruct my mind. It would be sensible for me to think that someone mistaken my luggage as theirs and would return to me as soon as they realise. Since the bus stopped over at winchester before reaching southampton the people who got my bag would probably be from that stop which was only 5 passengers. Therefore i suggested to N******l Express to investigate by contacting those 5 passengers since n******l express would be able to do so by just checking their record on who took the bus except for those who bought it over the counter.However, they rejected my suggestion and insisted that what i can do now is just wait. This incident just made me running up and down and left and right, calling unfinished calls to look around for ways to retrieve it back... i was so desperate until almost wanted to post an advert in the newspaper to help track down the luggage.

After two weeks, N******l express wrote me a letter telling the bad news of not being able to retrieve my luggage and given me a special phone number to call to talk to their lost property manager. this number is basically non existance because i called million times but no one just seem to be there to answer my call. they suggested me to claim from my insurance (which i dun have). Browsing through the n******l express term and condition on lost property, i am suppose to be compensated 500 pound maximun if my luggage is lost due to the driver negligence. I wrote to them immediately and guess what, they replied my mail after one week saying that this is not considered as their driver negligence. (so how would the driver ever be accused of negligence if this is still not considered as his negligence) so frustrated, so annoyed, so angry!!!!

Just as when i've about to totally given up... on the 10 November 2006, 9:19am, i was still in my bed, my phone was vibrating so hard until i was awaken by it, answered the phone with a still hunger for sleep brain, saying something... which i could not make up now... but i heard the few key words, n******l express... luggage... winchester police station.... found... my mind just woke up as if someone injected adrenaline into my brain, IT'S FOUND!!!! IT'S FOUND!!! Finally after 1 month and 10 days!!! Finally it's found. The police station received the luggage on Monday and looked into my bag and found my 'VERY IMPORTANT DOCUMENTS' and found my name and detail. I really dunno how they manage to contact N*****l express by those details and managed to get the bag to me at 11:09am the same day by using TNT courier. Welcome back my bag.... but some loss is loss and will never be retrieve even though i got my bag back... well... too hard to understand right?? at least i learnt something from this lesson:

1. always pay for the 1 pound insurance by national express... it's just 1 pound!!!!
2. always look outside whenever the bus stop to see whether anyone take you bag!!!!
3. always make sure u keep all the important documents with you!!!! doesn't matter how big is ur bag... insist on bringing up to the bus !!!!!!
4. and always trust GOD, he will help u :)

Something interesting about my research, part of my research involved asking equal amount of people of different gender to measure their fat distribution, BMI, lean mass... not involving giving blood or what, just use a small gadget which will only take them 30 seconds. Thought it would be a simple things to ask for volunteers, but shockingly, almost 90% of female and one male rejected me ... SO my questions to all my frens out there.... WOULD YOU OR WOULD YOU NOT LET ME CONDUCT THIS TEST ON YOU, JUST TAKE IT AS A FAVOUR I ASK FROM YOU? really just wonder what everyone else think... or is it just a southampton thing... hehe.. so please let me know k...

Life goes on as usual...

Counting down to 1st October 2006

tick tot tick tot tick tot.... the thought of 1st October is approaching just bombarded me again... not again... time really flies... flew across me without any warning... flew across me without even saying "excuse me" ... from now till then... exactly 10 days !!! So many things to do... so many things to prepare... too little time... so lazy... my holiday only officially started like three days ago... no... it's not enough... two weeks of holiday is just too too too short... :-P hmmm... life goes on...

P.S: Not like i hate that place... just too lazy :p dun misunderstood...

Home :-)

Yes... i'm back in Malaysia... specifically kuching.... oh lovely kuching... and folks... Kuching Airport is no more 'pudu' hehe... now it's like WOW!!!! I could not believe my eyes when i landed in the airport... it's very different now... so kathleen dun say kuching airport sucks anymore... and Jane faster come back kuching la... :-P

Already back since two weeks ago... life has been great back home except for the fact that i have to do elective... haih... if only i dun need to do all this.... so ya... i'm doing my 8 weeks long elective in Malaysia... very long elective posting.... been moving around 2 weeks recently... from Orthopaedics to Paediatrics... been seeing a lot and standing around a lot... sees lots of people... talked to many people... proved myself to be stupid many times in front of other people... :-( time to brush up la.... haih... anyway.. comparing UK teaching and Malaysian (UNIMAS) teaching... Below are the differences....
1. UNIMAS students need to deliver 10 babies on their own and perform all the baby check and all la starting from 3rd year... UK student ( i mean me la ) din even get a chance to watch a delivery ... wat say in charge??
2. UNIMAS students is allowed to perform any procedure to the patients including stitching and preparing nebuliser... central line and etc... UK student ( me again) dun even get a chance to assist... how are we suppose to learn ... :-(

well... can't think of anything else for now.... but UK also not bad la... below are some advantages....
1. UK student get smaller teaching group (bedside teaching) compared to UNIMAS where 10 students each bedside session....
2. UK student dun have to wear labcoat in the ward... UNIMAS is compulsory to wear white coat no matter how hot it is .... But it would be nice if we get to wear white coat when the weather gets too cold.. hmmmm

To be fair i shall name only two.. :-P

ARghhhh.... 6 more weeks to go... -_-"

Life goes on.....

Be discipline??

Freaking tired and anxious after the horrible OSCE exam that i had... woke up at 7am after a miserable night of insomnia... dragging myself out of my bed and prepared to get to the hospital for the exam... then being owned by a few stations asking me about Nephrotic Syndrome, interpreting abdominal x-rays, hypothyroidism etc... Received a brief e mail from the co-ordinator that the result will be released between 4:30-5:00pm the next day... (Can't they be more specific ... Grrrr....) Flashing back the previous terrible written paper asking me to talk about the breast screening programme in UK, multiple sclerosis -_-" and endometriosis (this is not even in the revision list) Oh GOD... was really thinking... "that's it... that's it... i'm not going to make it this time... "

The 29 hours before the released of the result was one of the few longest hours ever in my life... why 'few' because there were and there are going to be more moments like this in the near future... why do i have to always make myself into such circumstances where i can't even defaecate or urinate... or sleep properly... Though i was having BBQ with ppl that night... the feeling of anxious never left me... and it's getting worse as the time approaching slowly...

Keep repeating the same questions over and over again to my fellow batch mates "Everyone going to pass right... Sure can one right ?? " Pity them have to answer me the same answer again and again... but i only wanted to hear one answer "YES, We ALL CAN MAKE IT" whenever they are in doubt again... panic attack just struck me hard again... ARGHHhhhhh.... this is a great torture and i have brought myself in...

Getting down earlier to Boldrewood ( the campus that i'm not familiar with) did not help to ease myself down... instead it's making me feeling even worse... sitting down at the couch keep staring back at the notice board and discussing all the possibilities with navin is not calming at all... watching andrea and the other batch mates starting to crowding the compound is making my heart beating faster and faster... i could feel it pounding as if trying to release itself from pericardium... Staff came out keep postponding the release of the result is making me worrier and at some point frustrated with them... Arghhh.... Sitting down quietly, gripping my fist, holding my breath now and then... said a million prayers... not million but billions of prayers... Finally... three staffs walked out the office nodding their head indicating that it's the list we were all waiting for... me and navin were among the first to jumped out of our seat and rushed to the front... stopped by the staff to allow their colleague to actually paste the list up on the board... released us, when the list is finally up and sealed by the glass window... i moved forward... scanning the list up and down, looking for my ID no.

"no... where is it... where is it ????!?!??" Got it... found it !! I PASSED!!! YES I PASSED!!!! as if i just put down the million stones inside me. which had be compressing on my chest all the while.. i felt as if i was as light as feather... who says human need marijuana or similar to feel high... hehe... All fellow IMUnians all passed the exam as well... not great but we only wanted a pass anyway :) Wonderful feeling :) Malaysia here i come!!!

... and here i am back in malaysia... why must i always put myself into such situation.. will earlier and better preparation makes me more confident in such event again in the future ? Do i get the discipline to train myself to focus more on my studies after this event ?? Haih... Life goes on...

Help ....

HELP!!!!!!! ARGHHHHHhhhhhh........ STRESSSSSSSS!!!!!!! 2 more weeks to go..... :-( Arghhhhhh.... CONCENTRATE!!!!!!! ARghhhhhhhhHHHHHhhhHhhHHH!!!!


Felt much better now.....