Being blame again

*Sigh Sigh* To add on... Friday did not get better....

New patient not being seen during ward round when i was busy in other ward yesterday because my colleague did not bring the consultant to see him... turned out to be my whole team fault...

Patients not handed over to the juniors after being reviewed by our registrar without our presence turned out to be our fault again because of the absent minded registrar... and his poor communication...

Blood got stucked in the pod system in the system that delay the surgery happen to be our fault as well... get a grilling and cold and hard slam on the door by the consultant...

Patient refusing to be cannulated and being aggresive and deemed not safe for us to approach...thus bloods not taken for 2 days... turned out to our incompetency as well....

"Team!!! I expect a higher level of care for my patient in my team!!! " said the boss...

And just being woken up by a fast phone call today from night house officer... telling me that another houseofficer deleted our one and only list from the computer accidentally but refused to admit her mistake.... thus a new list is created based on a random piece of old list dated few days ago... when there were such high turnover and at least 7 new patients lying in the hospital which might be missed during today round...

Oh GOd... i really do not want to go in and work this monday!!!

Being Blamed...

*Sigh*... have u ever been blame by someone for something that you have not done... or something that went wrong but it's just not your fault.... or something just happen during ur absence and being ignored by your colleague but it just went all wrong just on the first day when you are back onto the work...

Started my Vascular rotation... Always been interested in Surgery and putting up my hope real high about getting into it... wanting to get involved in all those sophisticated surgical skills that i yet to master... so much expectation... so much hope to have such a good time... Previous houseofficer who have done surgery posting gave good feedback about surgery but, they have straightaway rolled their eyes once i mentioned i am going into vascular surgery and wished me good luck... so ya i did enter the rotation with some reserves in mind...

Enoxoparin not prescribed to post op patients after two days in hospital while i am away starts to develop symptoms very much suggestive of PE... turned out to be my fault because i am suppose to telepath such reminder to my colleague while i was away ??

Acute Pulmonary Oedema being missed by two of my Registrars during ward round, turned out to be my fault as well when my role during the ward round was just to write down whatever they said in less than 10 seconds...

and not being able to attend theatre to assist in operation turned out to be my fault as well when my team has 35 patients that need to be seen daily and looked after... when the other team have less than 10 patient shared between 3 of them...

Inaccurate fluid balance recorded by the staff nurse turned out to be my fault again... because i was supposed to make sure i have eyes on everyone back to make sure everyone in the ward do their work properly...

Deranged U&E which being left by my fellow team mates for 3 days without doing anything... turned out to be my fault tooo when patient deteriorate...

what else ..!!! this is madness!!!

this is enough!!!!! No MORE!!!! I NEED TO TAKE CONTROL... Never before ever I felt like not going to work the next day.... well... guess i have to carry on!!! Jia you lo!!!

Strange Encounter

I am pretty sure that everyone will be able to experience some culture difference whenever u visit another country. Other than the local, sometime you also realise that being the minority in a place, all our fellow malaysian strangers whom you have not met before in your life, would approach you and say hi and asking where are u from and all... suddenly you will felt Malaysians are all so friendly... I think most of us would have this sort of experience... some encounter would brought you some extra benefits like more chickens or side dishes when u meet a malaysian cashier working in KFC... but most of them would leave u with lots of ????? ... For example; Was waiting for lunchtime in victoria rail station with Glen in Costa, we were talking in hokkien quite loudly as we normally do... then one chinese lady in her 50s approached us and speak to us in HOKKIEN!!! (For easier understanding sack, i used english below)

Auntie: Where are you two from?? Singapore ar??
(Me and Glen shocked coz someone interrupted our super educational conversation)
Glen: Malaysia
Auntie: Oooo ... (look excited) which part?
Me: Kuching le... Where are u from? Are u from Penang? (from how her hokkien sound)
Auntie: No no... Port Dickson... What are you guys doing here??
Me: Working and studying lo...
Auntie: Huh.. what? can get visa meh?? Eh you, really one or not?? Dun be illegal immigrant le... can go into jail one...
Me: Really one... no problem getting visa at all...
Auntie: (Look unconvinced... change her target to Glen) So (looking at glen) what are u doing ?
Glen: Study lo...
Auntie: Study what?
Glen: Medicine
Auntie: Wah, you wan to be lokun ar (Doctor) ? Where you study?? How long have you been studying? What kind of lokun you studying?
Glen: St. George, 4 year lo... general... (pointing at me... ) this one working already le
Auntie: (Looking at me) so what are u working??
Me: Lokun lo...
Auntie: Stop lying la.... come on.. tell me ... what are u working as??
Me: !@#$%^&* Auntie, really one la.... -_-"
Auntie: (Finally looks a bit believed after i said many many time really la) wat kind of doctor are you?
Me: General lo....
Auntie: Oh... junior lokun is it... Anyway, boys i got to go now... you all take care k... all the best
Then she left... leaving me and glen burst out laughing non stop for the next 3 minutes...

Network card for 94 pence

FInally internet sorted... my laptop wireless card had self declared malfunction for quite a while now... me being denial and refuse to accept the fact that my toshiba M100 laptop is not that great afterall... first the hardisk now the wireless card... so peeps... if u are thinking of Toshiba for your next laptop... reconsider.... so I was hunting around for a wireless and was prepared to pay about 25 quid for one of those overpriced thing... always been asking myself... is it worth while wearing the jacket and walk in the cold to use the com in the library 5 minutes away... not worth it.... was browsing through the wireless card, eyeing on the Belkin one which is the cheapest they have there... holding them on my hand ready to the till to pay... this 94pence price tag just caught my eyes... 94 pence for this great stuff... and it works so well!!! Hooray... :-) Amazing Currys!!! In life, you never know what you will get... keep an open eye to look up for opportunities that you might have missed because you were so focus minded on one single or two issues and forgot to think about the third, the fourth or the million other issues raised due the decision made... take the step and he will provide you the opportunity :-) No matter what decision u made... he will guide you and be there for you :-) Looks like i will make a decision soon... :-)

Love this songs by Ben Cantellon - "I've found a Love"

Choices...

I believed in life... we have to make many decision... decision is easy when you have no other choice... straightforward and get on with it without chance of looking back and no place for regrets... it gets rather complicated when you realise that there are so many other choices... and each of the choices actually create different opportunities and will ended up in different ways in life... some steps that you take might create a quicker pathway to achieve what you always wanted in life but it will also make life slight tougher in the process... and the other option does give you a more relaxing pathway but it involve a lot more hurdle in each level... So now... just to make things slightly more complicated... we also need to find the balance between social life and working life... which one of these is more important to me... again another choice that i have to make... "List out the pros and cons of each choices to help you make decision" that's the advice from most people that i have talked to... and yes indeed i listed them down... and unfortunately, it did not make things easier for me... and decision till now has not been made and authorities are demanding a definite answer soon... so what should i do? Stick with Plan A? Plan B?? or even create another option Plan C or just give out and go to plan D?